Like so many Christian women Rebecca her mother and her two sisters love a man who does not walk beside them in faith. As his cancer returns after a year of remission they face his last days. As the women in his life struggle to savor their final times together and let go he finally reaches out to God and tells them so. Her father's death opens the landscape of heaven and hope to her. She beautifully renders those visions as well as the underbelly of sorrow as she is finally forced to wake up to the world to new hungers and to a far more dangerous faith. Here is a spiritual coming of age manifesto that will take its place alongside Voskamp and Lamott as uplifting writing on loss grief and growing up quick.